EMANUEL XAVIER

 


WARS AND RUMORS OF WARS

Ye shall hear of wars and rumors of wars;
see that ye not be troubled;
for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet

                                                  Matthew 24:6


1.
I escape the horrors of war with a towel and a room
Offering myself to Palestinian and Jewish boys as a 'piece' to the Middle East
when I should be concerned with the untimely deaths of dark-skinned babies
and the brutal murders of light-skinned fathers

2.
I've been more consumed with how to make the cover of local fag rags
than how to open the minds of angry little boys trotting loaded guns
Helpless in finding words that will stop the blood
from spilling like secrets into soil where great prophets are buried

3.
I return to the same spaces where I once dealt drugs
a celebrated author gliding past velvet ropes
while my club kid friends are mostly dead from an overdose or HIV-related symptoms
Marilyn wears the crown of thorns
while 4 out of the 5 weapons used to kill Columbine students
had been sold by the same police force that came to their rescue
Not all terrorists have features too foreign to be recognized in the mirror
Our mistakes are our responsibility

4.
The skyline outside my window is the only thing that has changed
Men still rape women and blame them for their weaknesses
Children are still molested by the perversion of Catholic guilt
My ex-boyfriend still takes comfort in the other white powder-
the one used solely to destroy himself and those around him
Not the one used to ignite and create carnage or mailbox fear

5.
It is said when skin is cut, and then pressed together, it seals
but what about acid-burned skulls engraved with the word 'faggot',
a foot bone with flesh and other crushed body parts

6.
It was a gay priest that read last rites to firefighters as towers collapsed
It was a gay pilot that crashed a plane into Pennsylvania fields
It was a gay couple that was responsible for the tribute of light in memory of the fallen
Taliban leaders would bury them to their necks and tumble walls to crush their heads
Catholic leaders simply condemn them as perverts having offered nothing but sin
Queer blood is just rosaries scattered on tile

7.
Heroes do not always get heaven

8.
We all have wings . . . some of us just don't know why

 


Information about the poet

Emanuel Xavier began performing in 1996, and quickly achieved the Nuyorican Poet's Café Grand Slam Championship. His first book, "Pier Queen," was released in 1997. In 1999, his semi-autobiographical novel "Christ-Like" was nominated for a Lambda Literary Award. With the publication of his third book, "Americano", Emanuel Xavier considers what it means to be American - but Latino; Latino - but gay; Nuyorican - but Ecuadorian; revolutionary - but not an activist.

"Wars and Rumors of Wars" is one of the 35 poems found in "Americano," published by Suspect Thoughts Press.

 

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